Oh, that living in the gray adds a new filter to all of our special places, doesn't it? For me, the "gray" and the "right now" can be kind of a gift, a reminder to be really present. But mostly, the "gray" and the "right now" just really fucking suck. The constant wondering, worrying, evaluating, the existential dread of every appointment and blood test. The secret calculus made for every plan. Rough stuff, to be sure. I loved reading this, thank you!
Peter, thank you - I agree about it sucking. I find storytelling helps me get through the "why can't it be fucking clear" realities, with a sliver more grace and potentially some beauty. Thank you for reading.
Oh, that living in the gray adds a new filter to all of our special places, doesn't it? For me, the "gray" and the "right now" can be kind of a gift, a reminder to be really present. But mostly, the "gray" and the "right now" just really fucking suck. The constant wondering, worrying, evaluating, the existential dread of every appointment and blood test. The secret calculus made for every plan. Rough stuff, to be sure. I loved reading this, thank you!
Peter, thank you - I agree about it sucking. I find storytelling helps me get through the "why can't it be fucking clear" realities, with a sliver more grace and potentially some beauty. Thank you for reading.