Amandaing at Full Capacity

(Or, I am Great Today)

When I am going through heavy dark shit, I am not above being immobilized. The basics feel unbearable. Months ago, I had dinner plans with a dear friend at my boyfriend’s restaurant—a place that should have felt safe. That day, I simply could not.

She didn’t push. She met me where I was and became a lifeline—getting me out of bed, showered, and fed.

If yo…